Sunlight

Usually, when the sun comes out, people enjoy going outside more often, and generally have a happier persona than say they would on a miserable, dull day. I, however, am the opposite. When I go out in the sunlight, I feel like all of the facial imperfections I believe to have are highlighted by its gaze, and I stick out like a sore thumb. It's a bit like the spotlight effect I talked about in the "Self-Consciousness" post. It also doesn't help that I have extremely pale skin, and when I do go out in it, I look like a ghost.

I suppose when I see the sun out I think back to when I had a healthy social life, and how I used to love going to play soccer on a sunny day. It brings back memories, and I don't like it. It also makes me think of all the people having fun out at the promenade or going to the local swimming baths, and I wish I was able to, too.