My Parents

My parents aren't very understanding of my condition, and believe it's all down to me simply being lazy. I'll be the first to admit, I am slightly lazy, but that is not linked in any way whatsoever with me not wanting to go out the house. I'd love to live a "normal" life, and be able to go to the pub with my friends, amongst many other things, but I just can't bring myself to do it.

My parents split up when I was young, and I've always lived with my mum. It's always just been me and my mum until a few years ago when she met a new man - an Italian, from Roma. I'll talk more about him at a later date. I do have siblings, but they are through my father, and I have never met them. I sometimes wish I'd had a brother or sister for company through the hard times. I still see my father from time to time, and he has his own theories on how to get me going out, and believes I do not need psychological help. He's a very intelligent man, but I think in this instance he is wrong. I've been forced out many of times, and have always just sat at the front door for hours, until they finally let me back in.

My mum is more understanding, and she has helped me seek help. She does, however, have her bad days when she'll shout at me for being on the computer for hours on end and not doing anything else. It's very understandable, and I realize that I must put her under extreme pressure at times, but I can't help the way I am. I'm not one of those people who puts their parents down, and blames them for everything, because I know this is partly due to certain things that have happened in the past which none of my family know about.